Worry

We are almost through our second week of unemployment.  He has been applying for jobs and has nothing but rejections.  I am worried about him.  He is sick at the moment - the flu or a sinus infection.  He went to the doctor yesterday and got an antibiotic.  It is not doing him much good.  He seems to be getting worse.  That along with unemployment and depression is just getting him down.  It is not doing me any good either.

I think we are with each other too much.  We have been snipping at each other.  We have to stop it.  It is important that we support each other.  Both of us are so worried and scared.  What is going to happen to us.  I am so desperate that I sent letters to John Cornyn, Kay Bailey Hutchinson and the White House.  I am even considering writing letters to the local tv stations.  

We need help desperately!!!!!

One Week

One week down.  How many more will there be?  I can only pray there will be no more weeks of unemployment.  If it goes on too long we will be in deep doo doo.  I can apply for SSI through SS.  We may get food stamps.  That still does not help us pay the house payment.  We will be living on credit cards which cannot last very long.  I am still in shock that he does not get unemployment.  This state really sucks.  I wonder how many people fall through that crack?  I am going to send a letter to both senators.  I hope they may help.

The new mortgage help may help us.  I am trying to not freak out.  I need to keep calm, to keep him calm.  Getting upset will do neither one of us any good.  I just pray that his unemployment will be short.  He is putting in lots of resumes, but getting little results.  Must be patient.  

Death and Job Loss

Wednesday, February 11 is a day that will go down in history as one of the worst days of my life.  First a great lady died and second my husband unexpectedly lost his job.  I am still trying to get over the shock of both and try to figure out what to do.  We have very little extra money and may not qualify for unemployment.  We can only hope he gets a job soon as we will be homeless, etc if he does not.  

Six years ago he lost his job and was workless for five months.  We almost went under then.... Now we will if he does not return to work within four weeks.  With this economy, who knows....  I am trying to stay calm, be the responsible one, etc but am unsure how I will do that.  

I know everything happens for a reason, just wish I knew why on this one.  I will be looking for a part time job, but who knows......

Please pray for us and send him a job.

A Great Lady

A wonderful lady full of grace and kindness died yesterday morning.  She had survived ovarian cancer for almost 10 years.  She had defied the odds.  She never had an unkind word to say to anyone.  She always made you feel that you were the most important person in the room when she talked to you.  She had a loving husband and two wonderful sons.  

There are people who are meant to live and meant to die.  She was one of the meant to live people.  She drew her last breathe at 10:51 am on Wednesday, February 11 with her loving sons and husband by her side.  She is at peace now.  Her suffering is over.  I know she is in heaven right now talking to Jesus Christ.  The heavens have one more angel now. It is comforting to know that she will be there waiting for me someday....

The world seems emptier now, less friendly.  She will be missed by her family and friends, especially her husband of 30 some years.  They were soul mates. His Ying to her Yang....  He will be lost without her.  She is at peace now, no pain, no suffering....

Her earthly remains will be put to rest on Saturday, February 14, 2009.  It seems fitting that the greatest love of Hal's life would be put to rest on Saint Valentine's day.  Her spirit is no longer bound by earthly restraints.  She will be with us on Saturday in spirit.  She will be telling us to not grieve her, but reveal in the glory of God and his creations.  She is a reminder that there is great goodness and glory in his creations.  

I will never forget her.  I knew her for eight years.  She had cancer when I met her so I never knew her before.  She is a testament to God's goodness and mercy.  I will never forget her.  

Jett

This morning a little miracle was born.  He weighed in  at 4 pounds 5 ounces.  He is seven weeks early.  He came into the world crying.  He is breathing on his own.  We must pray for him.  His mommy is struggling.  She needs help and direction.  They named him Jatt.

Why do the ones who do not necessarily want children have them and the ones who really want children cannot.  

My Health

Somehow managed to get sick.  This is never any fun.  I hate colds or whatever this is.  I have lost my voice and have a cough.  I know it will pass, but still feel bad.  

I had an epidural injection yesterday.  It was not what I expected.  It hurts.  I felt better before I had the shot.  Do not think I will have another any time soon.  Doctor wants me to have one again next week, but am not going to do it.  I know my body and that is too soon.  Had a nice relaxing day thanks to the good pain meds.  

Will be back to real world tomorrow.  Have lunch with Brendan.  His birthday lunch only two weeks late.  Do not know where we are going to go, should be fun!!

Chilling with Allyson

I spent time this afternoon with my youngest daughter.  She will be 26 in a few months.  She has been married for almost four years and is finally thinking about starting a family.  I have mixed feelings about being a grandmother right now.  Her living situation is not the best for having a child.  She is ready to have a child, though.  She talks about it alot.  

We had lunch near her house in Little Elm and had a nice visit.  I used to go to lunch with her every week but since she got her new job, I only get to see her every other week.  I miss her, but she is happy.  That is all I want for any of my children.

My oldest daughter made contact with her and wanted to give her my Mom's China.  We are estranged from her.  We all thought that was odd.  But it was typical Kathryn.  Maybe some day she and I can reconnect.  

I had bible study today also.  I meet with three other wonderful ladies every other week.  We have been meeting for years.  We are studying Hebrews this year.